One of the weaknesses that I may probably have is that I tend to become indecisive when it comes to decision making. Definitely not a positive trait to define a matured individual, since one must be capable to decide for himself or herself. Unfortunately, I have been failing to develop this thing inside me. It’s like everything, those options, are fighting inside my head. Which to choose, which to let go, things that makes me feel worried about the future. I’m afraid to fail. I’m afraid to lose. I’m afraid to fall for something that I may regret in the future. Yet, I know that life can never be played perfectly. That despite all the advice I get from the people around me, at the end of the day, I have to decide for my own. To stick to it and never look back. To never think of those other possibilities and “what if’s.” 

Career. Big word. I just really have to be enlightened and guided by the Holy Spirit for now. It had been a tough and rough road for me these past few weeks. And, I really hope to finally be able to decide which to choose and which to let go.

And after all the good news I’ve heard and all the good things I’ve received today, at the end of the day, I cannot explain the feeling inside.

Empty and blue.

:(

March 31 to April 6 - Best week of my summer. Full of memories, new experiences, fun-filled bonding moments, happiness and realizations.

From Manila to Laguna with friends then traveled back to Manila after the outing. Went back to Laguna with my family a day after, my hometown, where I spent most of my days then headed to Batangas.

Oh, thank God.

I’ve had so much to spill since the last time I posted about something here on tumblr. I’ve missed those sleepless nights I had just to be updated on tumblr, those moments when I just laugh alone because of the posts and gifs I’ve seen while scrolling down the button which seemed to be endless. My life has changed a lot from the moment I started facing my last second semester in college. Sleepless nights just to finish those chapters in Strama, those meeting the deadline habits, surprise quizzes and activities, lots of sleepovers at my friends’ and so much more I would certainly treasure. Finally, the wait is over, my prayer was finally answered. :-)

I’m just sooooo happy I was able to finish what I’ve started. Never imagined myself this happy after all those challenges I had this semester. Yes, I tried to hide the pain I felt inside, to secretly shed those tears after the most stressful schoolwork I had. 27units of load with on-the-job training, thesis paper and 18units of subjects at school for almost 4 months has never been that easy. Really have to keep my faith to let myself stand still despite all the countless unfortunate events I had. At the end of the day, realizing why I had to face those things was something I’m ought to be thankful of. God has been testing my faith and strengths all those times. Felt like giving up but thanks to all the people who still keep their faith on believing in me. 

Happy Graduation fellow candidates! We’ve faced the same endeavor yet on different perspectives and finally, the real world’s going to be few more steps away and definitely within our reach. Be strong. Be faithful. Be true.

Love,

M. ♥